July 2003

Hello - 7/9/2003





Haven't much to say?
Guess not ...
Then why are you here in the first place
Cause I felt sense of ...
Of what? Responsibility to speak those thoughts that creep about in the recesses of your mind ...?
Since you put it that way ... yes ....
Just as i thought - and the place
Place?
Yes, the place ... where were you in your thoughts?
I was hiding behind a bush - out of sight - with someone else
Did you see who the other person was?
Not really but I was holding onto him/her
for your life? Or out of love?
does it make a difference?
It could ... given the way your thoughts always appear in monochrome ...







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*raises eyebrow* haha... mr lim and his psychedelic thoughts. whoosh. =D

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the best often die by their own hand

just to get away,

and those left behind

can never quite understand

why anybody

would ever want to

get away

from

them







Cause and Effect.....charles bukowski

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Oh ho ho - 7/21/2003





yes it's that time of year again when we get bogged down in week 4 and can't see the forest from the trees and every deadline and ruptured vine in front of you is smashing your specs into smithereens - don't forget to pick out the bits from your cornea before they merge and become part of your lenses cause those aren't easily replaceable. Note that the difficulty of walking on air is seldom acknowledged, a skill required to precariously dodge the various shards of light that make up your life, often assumed. Make sure that you turn the combustionable engine one before you zoom into the hidden reaches that fall back and recede from the clear vision of your mind's eye. Once I danced through zero land and hopped on a foot till the time came for me to claim a bride - at which I gulped and woke up and found myself- miraculously only dreaming. My pockets are full and there's no place left for the sweets keychains and ammo. If you shot me now you wouldn't hear a retort in reply cause i've run dry of whisky and of rum. The smartest man on earth couldn't do mental sums without fiddling his thumbs backward and forward till the skin between them went sore if he had the weight of trivialities nagging and bitching at his ear - like I do.



Me misses me books. I'm saddled with bad essays. But at least I have incomprehensible jazz.







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That's deep... Incomprehensible jazz is the best...

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Yea i miss books too...but nowadays rarely get the time to read them

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wow...

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Again - 7/31/2003





how many times have looked at what goes on in my head and fear the worst. It cannot be the worst - for nothing is nothing and the worst cannot be called the worst. If the consciousness were a tool with which we shaped our thoughts, carefully, not these thrown out scraps of interstatial fiddlings, what would the worst be? And now I am become the worst - not I but become because I perceive the worst dripping and sloshing all around me.

I need to go mark - would like to wonder about the trivialities of sending out thank you for coming to College day hope you will continue to support the ever increasing budget of a newly independant institution but will not because my cheque isn't cashed and lately I've been running on faith.





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well, at least u still have faith.

Feel better soon~ *smilez*

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n recently, my faith has been running low. :) take care mr lim~

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faith more reliable than cheques anyway :)

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oh my gosh... is that y u were on the vegetable soup diet? *grinz* -exu-

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I guess you shouldn't have to worry bout the worst, cos there's only better things to look forward to after that? If you think you've been feeling this way cos of the people around you, just try to hang on in there and stay strong yup? Would love to see you smiling more often okay? :D

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